4 posts tagged “life”
Show us how you're spending the day after Thanksgiving.
I never even got out of my pajamas today. All I did all day long was snuggle on the couch with my puppy, watch tv, & take long naps. It was fabulous.
Show us your junk drawer.
Submitted by rosemarypepper
I don't have a junk drawer. Instead I have a junk room:
Born: March 4, 1914
Died: September 18, 2007
Loved: very much
My dad just called. My grandmother died today.
I'm not sure how to feel. Sad, obviously, but honestly, this was long over due. She should have died months ago, but for whatever reason, she held on. God knows these past 4 months have been hard on her. We're almost 100% sure she had stomach cancer, but her body was too frail to withstand the tests to find out. And really, even if we did find out it was cancer, what could we have done about it? She was 93. Her body was failing & her mind had failed years ago. She hasn't known who I am for years now. She completely forgot I ever existed. She thought her kids were still young & newly married. She had no clue she had 14 grandchildren & 15 great-grandchildren. But other than that, for the most part, she was very happy, so we were happy.
I feel bad that I hadn't seen her in so long. I think it had been about
10 years. That was about when her mind first started to go on her, but
she was still pretty sharp. And boy was she funny. I remember
laughing so hard with her we thought we'd pee our pants! That's what I
remember most about her... her laugh. That's what I'm going to try to concentrate on... all the laughs & fun we had together. It's too hard to dwell on the sad.
More than anything, right now I'm more sad for my dad. I know he knows this is for the best, but still, it's so hard to lose a parent, no matter how old you are. Over the past 2 weeks, he's been sending the family email updates on his mom & he's opened up more about his feelings for her, how much he loved & adored her. I can tell he's hurting so much, and that's what kills me. My dad has always been this big, strong man... never really showing too much emotion. But all that changed this year. He's opened up so much more & has been showing what a big heart he really has (& that I've known he's always had). I hate to see that heart breaking now & I hate that there's nothing I can do to fix it. All I can do is go over there tomorrow & offer him a hug & my love.
I guess that's all we ever really need, right?
